Title: Destiny’s Wheel: Chapter 2: Paths Chosen. Pt.4/?

Author: Deathangelgw

Disclaimer: Not mine….no sue…yadda yadda

Warnings: Sap, angst, some yaoi, humor, guys being guys…

Pairings: various with the guys, but they’re also tryin to nab my OC, see?

Rating: Prolly in the R section for limey sections! (I can’t help it! Get me into the yaoi and sex sex sex!)

Note: this is what you get when the comp is acting up…lotsa chapts at once! ANYHOO, hope ya’ll liked the sex! I sure did! ^______^

Feedback: please? Pretty please??

‘thoughts’

/telepathic speech/

Things had been quiet around the Yagiyu household.  The Troopers had recovered slowly but surely, though Genaisa and Ryo were more along the slowly part than the surely.  But, the guys had taken the time to learn about each other, both in personalities…and physically.

Shin smirked as he thought about the physically part.  Surprisingly, Seiji had been the most creative among them, finding out different techniques to use through various sources.  Shin shivered as he remembered a particularly good experiment of the blond’s that had involved Shu, silk scarves, feathers, and honey.  They all had slept with each other either as a group or in pairs or trios, slowly using that special time to grow closer through their bonds, both yoroi and friendship wise.  Shin enjoyed each moment, finding that he learned some new aspect of his lovers with each time.

“Ne, Shin, how’s lunch coming?” Touma asked as he walked in, followed by Seiji.  Shu smirked at them from the counter as he did his favorite hobby…Shin-watching.

Shin grinned and stirred the broth he was working on for Genaisa. She still remained in a deep sleep…had been for five days.  They were all very worried, but kept faith that she would sometime wake up.  He moved over to another pot where some stew was brewing and added some herbs for flavoring, then stirred it. “Almost done here.  Someone going to take the broth up to Genaisa and get Ryo up for lunch?” he asked as he looked over at them with a grin.

“How about I save you the trip, Mouri-san?” a soft voice commented from behind them and they all looked over in shock, gasping slightly.  Genaisa smiled weakly at them as she leaned against one of the chairs heavily. “I thank you for the broth, but anymore and I might float away,” she stated jokingly, and then stumbled slightly.

They all started, but it was Seiji who got to her first, putting her arm over his broad shoulder and his arm around her waist to support her as he whispered, “We didn’t think you were ever going to wake up.”  Relief was in his voice as he helped her to a chair at the dining table.

She sighed softly as she sank into the seat, and then looked up at him, a small smile of gratitude on her lips.  He smiled back and she murmured, “Gomen nasai.  I….didn’t sleep really the whole time we were battling Arago.  I guess I was worse off than I thought.” She smiled sheepishly at them, and then Shu snorted.

“No shit! Between helping us out with your power, not sleeping, and then nearly dying…” Shu swallowed hard and looked away.

Genaisa blinked as she saw all of the upset looks on their faces. ‘They were…really worried about me,’ she thought to herself in amazement. She looked down, embarrassed.

Shin brought over a bowlful of the stew and set it before her along with some juice. “Here…eat this and I’ll bring you some fruit too,” he instructed gently and she bowed her head in gratitude before picking up the spoon. 

The others watched as she slowly, but steadily ate the stew.  She then ate some of the fruit, again, slowly. Shu scratched his head. “Geez….you’d think with not eating for such a long time you’d be more…” he trailed off and Touma snickered.

“More like you, Shu-san?” Touma asked innocently then ducked as a playful punch was thrown his way.

Genaisa smiled at them as she licked her fingers from the melon she had just finished. “If I eat too fast, I’ll get sick,” she explained softly, and then winked at them.  They all stared at her and she blushed, looking down.  “Ano…I need to…go take a shower.  I…haven’t showered in awhile and must smell horribly,” she muttered softly in embarrassment.

The guys all smiled. “No, you don’t,” Touma replied gently and smiled as she looked up startled.

“Do you….want some help with your shower?” Seiji asked quietly, hesitantly and she blushed brightly.

“Um…n-no. I...can take care….of...m-myself,” she stuttered out, then tried to get up.  She moaned softly as she wobbled on her feet and Shin grabbed her.

“Are you sure?  We….wouldn’t mind,” Shin asked softly and she looked away.

“Onegai….don’t.  I…just…please don’t,” she whispered softly, and then walked swiftly from the room, feeling the stares that followed her out.

*~~**~~*

Genaisa sighed softly as she put her head under the stream, feeling the water cleanse her body and soul.  She couldn’t stop thinking about the offers made by the Troopers.  They were gentle about it, but….

She sighed again, her eyes welling up with tears.  She couldn’t let them get too close.  If they found out about her past….then they might turn her away.  Or, if they did get too close….then they might end up like all the others she had loved.

She washed her hair as she thought on it. ‘Do I…love them?  I can feel their mutual love between each other…but can they maybe love me and I them?’ she wondered to herself then shook her head as she put conditioner into her long raven colored hair.  She’d had to wash her hair several times before it had felt clean enough. 

Sighing as she finally turned off the shower, clean finally, she stepped out, then had to catch herself, dizzy.  “Oh jeez….I get up and clean and now I’ll faint…wouldn’t that just be wonderful?” she muttered to herself as she sat down on the chair nearby.  She toweled herself off then wrapped her hair up in the towel.  Grabbing the robe she had found in her room, she put it on, then blushed at how short it was. Granted, it wasn’t unseemly…just not something for modesty around five guys!

She brushed her teeth, trying to avoid her reflection in the mirror as she did this.  She knew she looked awful, cheeks hollow, eyes dark with circles.  She certainly wasn’t at her best in the looks department at the moment.  Sighing softly, she walked carefully back to her room, not seeing the green eyes that followed her to her room from the stairs, then grabbed the brush she had found with her robe.  She smiled slightly as she looked at it, and then took her hair down before sitting on her bed.

She tried to comb through her hair with her fingers when she suddenly felt some more fingers comb through her hair as well. Eyes wide, she gasped as she turned her head and blinked in surprise. “Mouri-san?” she asked softly as Shin smiled at her.

He looked down, blushing softly. “Gomen ne…I didn’t mean to scare you.  I…just thought I could help you with your hair. That is…if you don’t mind,” he asked softly.

She smiled unsuredly at him. “Next time…knock please?” she requested softly, looking away.  She looked up again as she felt a gentle hand caress her hair away from her face.

Shin smiled softly. “So afraid? What is it you fear from us, Genaisa?” he asked softly, sadly.

She looked away, eyes filling with helpless tears as she bit her lip.  Shin didn’t press any further. Instead, he took the brush from her hand and began to untangle her raven locks slowly.  She sighed softly as he worked the tangles free, sliding his hands soothingly through her hair and along her scalp, massaging gently.  Lightly, he worked down her neck and shoulders, massaging the tenseness there and eliciting a soft moan from her as he worked away the knots.

Suddenly, she stiffened as his fingers went under her robe along her shoulders.  She pulled away, hair falling around her as she scooted away fearfully.  “Don’t…please Shin….” she whispered softly.

“Genaisa…why do you fear us? Don’t….don’t you want to be with us?” Shin asked softly as he watched her, hurt and concerned.

She took a shuddering breath and looked away.  “Shin…I…we…I can’t,” she pleaded softly, sorrow in her voice.  “I dare not…” she whispered softly as she curled up slightly.

Shin blinked. ‘So…she does want to be with us. But something is holding her back from us….but what?’ he wondered as he watched her shaking form.  He knew she was still very weak.  That much was certain.  The very fact that she hadn’t sensed his presence at the door proved it.  Frowning in confusion, Shin scooted closer to her and pulled her into his lap, holding her close to him when she struggled a bit, then suddenly leaned against him.  “Genaisa…we want to be there for you. You’ve always been there for us….no matter what the cost.  And we’ve seen the beauty within your soul.  Why won’t you let us in?” he asked quietly as he rocked her.

She sobbed softly, shuddering.  Shin frowned more at this, his heart breaking as he held her until she calmed down.  Before she fell unconscious though, she replied softly, “I can’t let you get close….because you’ll die….just like everyone else.” She sighed softly then as she fell asleep, relaxing against him.

Shin gently moved her, putting her under the covers and tucking her in carefully.  He wiped the tears off her face, then leaned in and kissed her goodnight.  Silently then, he left the room and went downstairs to the living room, where Touma, Shu, Seiji, and Ryo were sitting, watching some TV.  He sat down near Ryo and laid his head on the Rekka holder’s shoulder.

They all watched Shin as he sat down.  Ryo gently wrapped an arm around Shin’s shoulder as he asked, “Shin…daijoubouka?”

Shin sniffed once, and then tears started rolling down his cheeks as he watched the television blankly.  He felt a gentle, yet warm hand wipe the tears, but still said nothing as he was comforted by his friends. The couch shifted as another body sat next to him and he blinked as he felt gentle hands massage his neck and shoulders.  He sighed as he relaxed, then whispered softly, “I don’t think Genaisa will want to be with us.”

Silence greeted his statement, and then he heard Seiji ask softly, “Why do you say this, Shin? Did….something happen?”

Shin sighed, then reached over and turned the TV off.  He turned to his lovers with sad eyes. “She…told me that she doesn’t want us close.  Because she’s afraid we’ll die,” he replied softly, and then lowered his head, tears rolling down his face again as he added hoarsely, “Like everyone else.”

The other four all froze at this.  “Everyone….else? What does that mean?” Shu asked softly as they stared at Suiko.

Shin shivered, and then was pulled into Ryo’s comforting embrace. “I…don’t know.  I don’t think she knows how…close we’ve all become. She’s too weak, that’s for certain,” he stated as he snuggled closer into Ryo’s heat.

“Maybe we should tell her…” Ryo suggested softly as he looked up at his friends.

“I think we should wait till she’s stronger, Ryo.  She….might not be able to handle the thought of all of us being…well...you know…” Shu muttered, blushing slightly.

Touma snickered. “Geez…you said it earlier.  What’s stopping you from saying it now? Lo-vers,” he commented teasingly, and then ducked as an arm swung out at him playfully.

Seiji smirked as he watched the two banter about.  “I agree with Shu.  Right now, she’s feeling weak and vulnerable.  And there’s a thing in her past that’s truly stopping her from accepting our feelings for her.  I think we need to wait till she’s at least able enough to figure it out on her own,” he said softly and the others nodded in agreement.

“Though how the hell she hasn’t figured it out YET is beyond me!” Touma declared laughingly as he snuggled close to Shu. “We sure aren’t quiet, that’s for certain!” He grinned at his friends, who grinned back.

“Yea, especially you,” Shin murmured teasingly and Touma snorted in disdain.

Ryo purred as he slowly licked down Shin’s neck.  “Neither are you….little fishy,” he stated softly and Shin moaned in pleasure as they came together once more in passion.

*~~**~~*

Shu sighed softly.  It had been a day and Genaisa hadn’t woken up yet that day.  They were worried that maybe she was avoiding them all, but upon checking, had found her to be asleep.  Shu looked over at his couch partner.  Touma’s nose was buried in a book as he sat on the couch, curled up comfortably intertwined with Shu.  Shu smirked….time for some distractions.

*~~**~~*

Genaisa smiled slightly as she saw Seiji and Shin practicing their attack techniques outside on the lawn.  She looked down as she stirred the tea in her cup, thus missing the brief kiss that passed between the two when they came close together.  She smiled a bit more as she saw them talking quietly, then got up and headed for the living room.

She turned the corner….then stopped, shocked.  She stared as she saw Touma moan…and Shu’s head buried between his legs.

*~~**~~*

Touma moaned softly as his head fell back while Shu went down on him.  He loved this feeling, surrounded by a hot wet mouth as suction and a hard tongue awoke his desire. ‘Leave it to Shu to get bored and want some fun…’ he thought to himself in amusement as his eyes opened slightly.  A soft ‘pop’ sounded as Shu looked up at him, smirking passionately as he slowly stroked the shaft he had just been sucking on.

Suddenly, they were both startled as a loud smash was heard and they looked over.  Genaisa watched them, eyes wide in shock and horror, the shattered tea cup evidence of the noise they had heard.  Their eyes widened as they stared at her, realization dawning on them on what she must have just seen.

Genaisa stepped back, tears rolling down her face as she stumbled. “G-gomen!” she cried out, then turned and ran out.

“Genaisa! Wait no! Let us explain!” Shu shouted as he struggled to his feet, followed swiftly by Touma as he zipped up his pants.

Genaisa sobbed slightly as she ran from the living room.  She failed to see a body step in front of her and ran right into Seiji.  Grunting in surprise as he brought his arms up in an embrace, Seiji looked down into the tearstained face of Genaisa. “Genaisa?! What’s wrong?!” he asked, startled to see her in tears.

She whimpered and pulled away, then ran outside.  Seiji followed her to the door, calling for her, and then turned as he heard running and shouts for Genaisa behind him.  He frowned as he saw Touma and Shu run in, flushed and panting, looking very sheepish and worried as they halted before the Korin wearer. “Seiji! Where’s Genaisa?” Shu panted out and Seiji crossed his arms.

“Tell me what happened first,” Seiji ordered softly as he glared at the two miscreants.

Shu growled softly as he clenched a fist, but a chagrined Touma put an arm across his chest, halting him. “Genaisa….walked in on Shu….and I... while we were….having some fun,” he admitted softly and Seiji’s eyes narrowed.

“So much for telling her gently,” Seiji muttered, and then looked outside. /Shin.  Genaisa is very upset. She’s heading for the dock. Take care of her?/ he sent out to Shin, who had gone for a swim in the nearby lake.  Shin sent back an affirmation, not asking the problem as he found the upset Reikon.

“We have to go to her,” Shu insisted as he tried to step up, but was stopped by Seiji’s cold glare.

“Right now, you two are the LAST ones who should speak with her!” Seiji hissed out angrily, his normally cool demeanor broken by the tears that had been on their dear friend’s face.  Shu clenched his jaw and hung his head, while Touma looked away, equally distressed.  “Shin is with her.  Hopefully he can calm her down,” Seiji said softly then looked sadly out the door.  ‘Genaisa….please don’t let this stop you from knowing us…’ he prayed silently as he watched the sun lower in the sky.

*~~**~~*

Genaisa sobbed as she sat on the dock curled up, her body shaking with the wracking sobs.  She didn’t know what upset her more: the fact that she walked in on Shu and Touma at such a private moment….or that she now knew why they wanted to know her better.  She looked up; tears coursing down her face as she tried to wipe them with a shaking hand.  She tried to catch her breath between the hiccoughs that were hitching the way and sobbed again. “Why? Why did they….and why me? Why??” she asked herself over and over, sobbing ever harder as she trembled.

She looked up, startled, as she heard some water splash and a soft thump.  Shin watched her in concern from the water as he asked, “Genaisa? Are…are you alright?” His green eyes were dark with worry as he watched her scoot away and turn her face away.  Sighing softly, he got up onto the deck, and then sat down opposite to her. “Want to talk?” he asked her as she turned her face to him and watched him warily.

She looked down at the water and shrugged. Sniffing, she wiped her face again with a trembling hand. “There’s nothing to talk about. I’m happy for all of you. I knew you’d…” she trailed off though, choking slightly as she looked away and buried her face into her knees.

Shin’s brow drew together in a concerned frown. “You know now, don’t you?” he asked softly as he scooted closer to her. 

She looked up at him in fear and he stopped, shocked.  She frowned, and then spat out, “I’m surprised Date-kun didn’t tell you.” She looked away and he blinked.

“Why do you pull away, Genaisa? Don’t…don’t you want to be with us? Be our friend? Be…loved?” Shin asked as he watched her and she shivered.

“No.  I don’t,” she stated coldly, and then looked at him.  He gasped softly at the coldness that now covered her face, but it wasn’t that which shocked and dismayed him.  It was the utter loneliness and despair he saw within her violet gaze….and the acceptance of that fate…that hurt the deepest part of the sensitive Trooper.  She stood up, trembling still, but now much firmer and turned away.

“Wait! Why don’t you want us?!” Shin asked desperately as he stood up and faced her back.

She looked over her shoulder and replied softly, “Because it is not for me.  My fate has been decided time and again….now is no different.  We work together for the sake of this world, but once our duties are done…I will no longer be around.” She turned from him then and walked away, back rigid as she left Shin staring after her.  Two tears on both faces rolled down at the same time, though neither saw nor knew of the irony.

*~~**~~*

The five Troopers sat around the kitchen table somberly, each thinking about what Shin had just told them of recent events.  Shin and Ryo had, needless to say, been quite angry with Touma and Shu’s mistake, but it hadn’t lasted long.  What worried them all now was where Genaisa had disappeared.

They all looked up as they heard the back door open and saw Genaisa come into the house.  But, before they could say anything, she ran past them and upstairs, where they heard a door shut.  They looked at each other and sighed softly, not sure what they could do. 

“I just don’t get it! You’d think she’d want us after everything we’ve all been through together!” Shu cried softly in frustration as he looked down at his hands.

Shin sighed softly. “It’s almost like she’s resigned to being alone,” he commented and Touma nodded in agreement.

“But…doesn’t she have family?” Ryo asked softly as he ran his fingers over the tabletop in front of him in random patterns.  Seiji watched him and saw that he was tracing the kanjis of their own yorois unconsciously.

“I don’t think she does,” Touma answered softly and they all looked at him, shocked.  He looked at them sadly and explained, “Think about it.  When Kaos died, she said she had no one now.  Somebody doesn’t say that unless they really don’t have anyone in their lives.”

They all stared sadly at him, then turned and looked upstairs, to where their subject had gone.  Seiji sighed softly and suggested, “Ryo….I think you should go up and talk to her.”

They all looked at Seiji in surprise. “Ryo? Why him?” Shu asked as he leaned his chin on his palm.

Seiji sighed again. “Ryo is first of all our leader.  He and Genaisa worked together deeply to defeat Arago so thus have a much stronger bond.  Second….I think she trusts Ryo more than any of us,” he replied as he closed his eyes and leaned back.

“How so?” Touma asked quietly as he watched Ryo get up slowly and face the stairs.

“Because….she showed him her soul in a way,” Seiji murmured as he opened his eyes and they all watched Ryo walk up the stairs to Genaisa.

*~~**~~*

Genaisa lay curled up on her side on her bed, facing away from the door as she tried to sort through her emotions once more.  She knew she was upset, but the hurt and betrayal sides were confusing her as much as her unnatural coldness that she had shown briefly.  She also found, much to her discomfort, that, as she ran through what had happened, she became more aroused by the images of Shu and Touma.  Not only that, but also other images played within her mind of the Troopers together in various sexual activities.  She sighed in frustration.  ‘Why is this so confusing!? I’m happy for them, yes, but I know that I can not allow myself to be with them in such a way! So why does my mind keep on tormenting me with these thoughts and images?!’ she asked herself furiously as she trembled.

She tensed up as she heard a soft knock on her door.  A brief touch with her mind revealed her visitor to be Ryo and she sighed softly, biting her lip.  She reached out with her power and released the lock, letting the door open before the Rekka wearer.

Ryo stepped in cautiously and looked around the darkened room. “Genaisa? Can…can we talk?” he asked softly as he closed the door behind him and stepped fully into the room.

“If you think that I will sleep with you if you sweet talk me, you are sadly mistaken, Rekka,” her voice floated out coldly, yet softly. 

Ryo flinched a bit, then frowned, angered. “No, Genaisa. None of us would ever force you into something like that.  We care about you too much to ever do that,” he replied angrily and watched as she turned onto her back, watching him.

She frowned. “Ryo….I am happy that you all realized just how close you can indeed become.  The yoroi bond is very strong and powerful and you’ll need it as such for any future trials.  But…I am not part of that.  I know now that you all want to be with me in that way, but it isn’t meant to be.  So just stop…” she stated, but was cut off as Ryo walked over to her bedside and sat down next to her, glaring at her.

“Stop what? Loving you? Caring about and for you?  Trying to be friends, maybe even family with the one who helped us to live? Who nearly DIED to save and protect us??” Ryo bit out angrily as he leaned over her, his arms on either side of her body.  She held her breath, body tense as she watched him in fear.  He leaned down, his lips nearly touching hers. “Yes we want you.  You are so beautiful inside and out that we want to just bask in your loving self as much as possible.  You cared so much about us before Arago was killed and now you pull away from us.  Why? To protect us?? Or…to protect yourself?” he asked softly and she tensed up even more, eyes wide.  He leaned in the rest of the way, brushing his lips across hers gently before saying, “Genaisa…we just….want you to be happy.” Slowly then, he pressed his lips more firmly to hers, kissing her tenderly. 

She gasped softly in surprise and he took that opportunity to press his tongue into her mouth, tasting her for the first time as he kissed her deeply.  She didn’t respond as he kissed her, not fighting him, but not encouraging him either.  Finally, after a minute, he pulled back and looked down at her.  Her face was blank as she turned her head from him and looked at the wall.

His heart broke as he saw how rigid she was with fear. ‘She…thinks I’m going to rape her!’ he thought in agonized shock, and then pulled away, sitting on the edge of the bed.  He heard her move up and looked over to see her curled up, knees against her chest as she sat with her back to him.

“Happiness….I haven’t known that in so long.” He heard her say softly and he turned to her.  She didn’t move as he moved closer to her and wrapped his arms around her, pulling her to his chest.  “So long….because my fate is to be alone.  You…can all be together…but that is not my fate.  For every time someone gets close to me they die,” she murmured softly, her voice slowly going colder as she stared at the wall.

“How do you know this, Genaisa? How do you know that we will die if we even know you as a beloved friend?” Ryo asked softly as he held her.

She pulled away slowly and lay down on her side, resuming the position she had been in when he had entered.  “Because….it happened to Kaos,” she replied softly, voice dead of all emotion and Ryo shivered at her lack of emotion.  “Leave me, Ryo no Rekka.  I will fight by your side….but I will not sleep in your beds.  Not now….or ever,” she stated and Ryo hung his head, fighting down the tears of anguish he felt for her. 

Getting up slowly, with one final look at her on her bed, Ryo turned to leave.  But, before he left the room, he turned back and said softly, “Genaisa.  You may have accepted this supposed fate…but we have not.  Nor shall we ever.  You are Ai… love.  And to hold that soul you must have love.  You feel the yoroi bond as strongly as we do.  And…we will be there for you….no matter what.” Having said this, he turned and left the room, barely catching the soft sob that escaped the one they all longed for as the door closed behind him.  He leaned against the door and slid down, putting his face into his drawn up knees and cried softly, weeping for his friend.

TBC

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