‘thoughts’

Warnings: More smut and language. Hehehe >.>

Jensen stirred gently as he started to wake up when the sense of the sun near to rising brushed his senses. He nuzzled the warm body that he was holding and smiled as Jared mumbled in his sleep before snuggling into the pillow he was holding onto. After Jared had cried himself out, he’d calmed enough for Jensen to lead him out of the shower and into bed, where they had curled up and just held each other the rest of the night. Sleep had finally taken them, but Jensen understood why Jared had been so upset. He knew the feelings all too well.

But his time was short, so he gently pulled from his young lover and got out of bed. He looked back and watched as Jared frowned in his sleep as he searched for Jensen before relaxing a bit into sleep again. Jensen smiled tenderly as his eyes trailed over the long pale back that was stretched out along the bed and the shapes of the strong thighs and legs that were under the sheets. He wanted to do so much with Jared, but it wasn’t to be just yet. ‘Some day,’ he thought sadly as he opened the door and tore his gaze away from the innocent sight. He looked out and stepped outside just as the sun peeked over the horizon and had just blocked the door open before all thought left him and a hawk flew into the sky with a mournful cry.

Jeff watched as Jensen flew high into the sky after he came out of the forest and felt his heart break at the sight. ‘To be free and not remember...’ he thought before he swiftly crossed the parking lot and went into the room that had been propped open, shivering from the cold as it penetrated his naked body. He closed the door and stopped as he saw the delicious sight before him. Jared was laid out on the bed, a sheet covering only his lower half and his back a tempting curve of pale flesh. Jeff normally had good intentions, but he was also a man and such temptation was too much for him. He could feel himself hardening as his eyes trailed over the delicate lines and sensuous curves and his mind’s eye supplemented Jensen being next to the young man. The image just about did him in and his breath caught as Jared shifted a bit before settling.

A wicked thought came to him and he smirked as he strode over slowly to the bed. Carefully, he crawled onto the bed, his gaze sliding over the slender body hungrily before he lay out next to Jared. He leaned in carefully, not wanting to wake Jared just yet but no longer able to resist such temptation. He flicked his tongue out, tasting Jared’s skin on his shoulder and noted the couple of love marks that were near the boy’s neck. He almost growled as his cock twitched at the sight, knowing Jensen’s tendency to mark in the heat of passion and it made him want to mark Jared as well. He would, but when he could hear Jared’s voice. At the moment, he just wanted to taste.

And so taste he did as he licked, suckled, and nipped at the soft skin of Jared’s back, making his way down leisurely as Jared squirmed under him in his sleep. He was amazed the boy could stay asleep, but he knew how to wake him as he pushed the soft sheets covering what he wanted off. He growled deeply as he took in the soft curve of Jared’s ass and shifted down to lick and bite lightly at the area, causing Jared’s squirms to turn into thrusts into the mattress. He parted Jared’s butt cheeks and leaned in, licking at the tight pucker there. He moaned and nearly lost it as he smelled Jensen’s scent there, a musk deep and almost a lost memory to him as he took it in. ‘Jensen took him...’ he thought in rising desire and he wanted to mark the boy as well then and there. He plunged his tongue into the tight pucker and almost jerked off as it clamped down. ‘Virgin...that’s mah boy...’ he thought and chuckled deeply as he wiggled his tongue, tasting Jared and Jensen at the same time. He pressed in a couple of fingers and growled as Jared cried out and arched above him as he trembled and jerked. The smell of fresh come rose up as the youth shifted and he wanted it more. He wanted to taste and fuck and god he wanted this boy!

He pulled back and turned Jared onto his back, smirking as Jared looked up at him in a sleepy muddled daze, still trembling from his release. “Jeff...” The whimper almost undid him as he pressed between the long legs and wrapped Jared into his hold before taking those sassy lips in a hungry kiss. He rocked against Jared as the youth wrapped his legs around his waist and Jared’s whimper was swallowed by him as he delved his tongue deep into Jared’s mouth just as he had been doing to Jared’s ass. They rocked together for a bit, moaning as their cocks slid together steadily, rubbing in delicious friction that could get them off if he wanted it. But he didn’t...not yet. He wanted to be balls deep in this boy before he released his load. He wanted this boy... “Mine...” he growled out against Jared’s neck as he nosed the soft skin and growled as Jared shuddered and whimpered again under him. He licked at the soft skin before biting down and sucking, bucking with Jared as the youth jerked under him in pleasure while clinging to him. He marked the youth opposite to Jensen’s mark, a clear statement.

Taken...mine...his...ours...

He released the bruised flesh and leaned up to gaze into Jared’s lust filled gaze before kissing the young man again as his hands went down to cradle the slender hips and shift them into position. He leaned up again as he broke the hungry kiss and glanced over. He smirked as he saw a small bottle of lotion sitting there and grabbed it, then squirted it onto his hand. He smoothed it onto his aching cock before using the rest on two fingers to stretch Jared a bit. He watched as Jared squirmed and moaned under him, his chest heaving as his body shifted and thrust onto his fingers. It didn’t take him much to lose control and he pulled his fingers out before lying out over Jared again. He kissed Jared hard as he shifted into position then slowly pressed inside, groaning as Jared stretched around him as the boy whined in pain and pleasure into his mouth. He sucked on Jared’s tongue, distracting him as he pushed all the way inside and then stilled to let them both adjust. Jared was hot and tight around him, so tight that he was afraid he was going to lose it completely before even moving. But he regained control of his need as they held onto each other, then slowly flexed, pushing deeper into the boy.

Jared moaned deep in his throat as his head fell back and Jeff couldn’t resist that offering as he began to move. His body quickly remembered this act as he thrust into Jared’s body, bringing pleasure to them both when he shifted them just enough for him to hit Jared’s g-spot with every thrust. But his control had been stretched too thin and it snapped when Jared whimpered his name with every thrust. He began pounding into the boy, bracing himself on either side of Jared’s shoulders as he thrust and felt Jared cling to him as he cried out. The sounds...the sight...the smell...it overwhelmed him as he lost complete control and thrust hard and fast, sending Jared over the edge as the boy cried out in completion before he was dragged along and exploded deep inside the teen.

He tried to stay up as they jerked and gasped in ecstasy, but his strength gave out and he collapsed on top of Jared, who relaxed as well. He managed to turn them to their sides enough that he wasn’t crushing the youth, but he didn’t leave Jared’s body. And it seemed Jared was just fine with that as he wrapped around Jeff and pressed as close as possible to keep Jeff deep inside. ‘Just like Jensen...’ he thought tiredly as he stroked his fingers through Jared’s hair while they both relaxed. Jared nuzzled into him and promptly fell back to sleep and Jeff couldn’t blame him one bit. He cuddled Jared close and tugged the sheet back up over them before giving in to exhaustion himself.

*~*~*

Jared yawned and stretched, enjoying the dull ache in his ass as he watched Jeff fill up the Harley. Jeff smirked over at him, looking far too smug at how fucked over Jared felt, but who was Jared to complain? He waved and sauntered towards the gas station, grinning as Jensen flew in and landed on his arm as he stretched before hopping to his shoulder and tugging on his hair in greeting. “Hey to you too,” he murmured in reply as he turned his head a bit to nuzzle the feathered body before he went into the store to get something to eat and drink. He smirked as the store clerk asked him in awe if Jensen was his bird and he just said that he was Jensen’s human as he paid for his stuff and grinned as the girl flushed a bit. He took his stuff and went outside, but then stopped as he saw a van at one of the other pumps.

With a shock, he saw a bald head peek around the edge to watch Jeff and knew who it was. ‘Mike!’ He glanced over as well and saw that his lover had gone inside to pay for the gas, so he dashed over and around, ignoring Jensen’s chirps of disapproval as he ran. He grinned as Mike smiled at him and hugged the other man in greeting. “Mike...you caught up. Good.”

“Hard to do that with you two just meandering around,” Mike grumbled and Jared snickered at that. “You guys only have three days to get to New York though to break this thing,” he said seriously and Jared’s grin faded as he nodded solemnly.

“Ok look....we need to catch Jeff and convince him. So follow us and we’ll convince Jensen with this and catch Jeff. Ok? Try not to be too obvious,” he suggested and grinned as Mike rolled his eyes.

“Just blow him to distract him. I know you can,” Mike retorted and laughed softly as Jared blushed beet red.

“Jared! Time to go! Get yer ass out here!”

Mike’s eyes widened when he heard Jeff and Jared snorted. “Keep up, ok?” he ordered before dashing towards the store, then walking over to where Jeff was waiting. He smiled sweetly as his lover eyed him, then whimpered as he was pulled closer into Jeff’s larger body and kissed fiercely. When he was released, he looked up at Jeff. “What was that for?” he asked as he licked his lips.

“Punishment for keeping me waiting,” Jeff growled and Jared felt a bolt of want shoot through him. Then he understood what Jeff meant by punishment when he was forced onto the bike half hard that swiftly went to fully hard when Jeff revved up the bike and got them going. He pressed as close to Jeff as possible as he wrapped his arms around Jeff’s chest and tried not to think about Jeff fucking him as they drove along. Soon he dozed off though as they drove through the state heading south east.

He jerked awake though as they slowed down and turned down a pebbled pathway that traveled near a lake that was already frozen over. He looked around tiredly and noted that it was maybe mid afternoon and wondered what was going on when they came to a stop in front of a log home. He looked up at Jeff as they came to a stop and saw warmth there. “Where are we?” he asked softly before getting off of the bike with Jeff and stumbling a bit as his numb butt made it aware that sitting too long on a vibrating motor was not great for circulation.

“Mine and Jensen’s old cabin.” The answer was soft and startled him as he looked over at the older man as he looked around at their surroundings. “We came here and made love here for the first time after our second date. After that, we escaped here whenever we could, but couldn’t come here after Welling found us out,” he explained as a bitter smile crossed his lips. He refocused on Jared and his smile gentled as he held an arm out and gathered Jared close to him. His soft sigh as he buried his face into Jared’s shoulder saddened Jared even more and he held Jeff close to him, being the strength for this strong man. “Jared...this place is yours now too. You’re a part of us...you’re *ours*.”

The soft declaration broke something within Jared and a tear rolled down his cheek before he buried his face in Jeff’s broad shoulder. When Jeff stepped back after a bit, he smiled and helped the older man take their stuff into the cabin. “So no one knows about this place?” he asked as they went inside.

“Nope. I have it listed under my grandfather’s wife’s maiden name for secrecy. With how in the public eye we were, any privacy was craved. We’d come up here to just fish or relax on the lake in the boat or just watched the football games while lazing around,” Jeff replied and sneezed as a cloud of dust hit them when they opened the door.

“True home,” Jared murmured as he looked around, taking it in. It was a large log home, two stories and, from what it looked like as he went inside, a huge basement that was built into the side of the hill that was overlooking the lake. The front door led into a long hallway that opened up into a living room that was huge. An enormous glacier rock fireplace filled almost an entire wall and had floor to ceiling windows on either side that overlooked the lake and forest around them as they curved into the room a bit for about ten feet. The ceiling of the living room vaulted cathedral style and met with the windows and fireplace at its apex. The floors were wooden with some faux fur rugs here and there and the black leather sofas, loveseat, and two large cushioned lazy boy chairs surrounded the fireplace and its platform of white stone.

Awed, Jared looked around, noting the paintings and plants that were situated around the room before he decided to explore some more. He went into the kitchen and almost drooled when he saw the stainless steel appliances and huge refrigerator. He brushed a hand along the solid oak dining room set and saw that there was a breakfast nook as well near some more tall windows that faced the forest surrounding them. He moved from the kitchen to a set of wooden stairs that went up and found several bedrooms and an office that had two computers. ‘Gonna have to update those,’ he mused idly as he looked around. He found the master bedroom and almost whimpered as he saw the huge California king sized bed. It had black and white silk sheets under a maroon comforter that seemed to set off the primary colors dramatically. A couple of artistically tasteful paintings of two naked men either in the throes of passion or holding each other tenderly hung on the two walls on either side of the door while huge windows revealed a stunning view of the lake and the surrounding land as it spread out. He saw that there was a deck outside of the doors before turning and seeing himself reflected back from a large mirror that was situated on the wall parallel to the bed. He moaned as the implications sunk in and had to rub his crotch a bit to alleviate the sudden tightness there. He went to the side of the mirror in the doorway there and found a bathroom that was as large as the bedroom with a whirlpool tub made of black marble on a raised platform as the center stage. He noted the candles that had burned down on the wall that surrounded the tub before looking over at the sinks and toilet. He left the bathroom and went back downstairs, grinning as Jeff smirked at him before taking him downstairs.

There he found a much cozier version of the living room as they stepped down into the depressed section of the floor and sat down on some of the pillows that were scattered around the area. He noted that there was seating in the circle and cushions then saw the fireplace and windows set up again. He noticed that the windows were also doors on the left side and that a stone pathway led down the hill to the lake. He relaxed as Jeff took him into his arms and stroked his back. He looked up and smiled into the kiss that landed on his lips as he wrapped himself around the older man. Now he understood why Jeff had brought him there.

This was home.

*~*~*

“I can’t believe this is still here.”

The soft declaration broke through Jared’s thoughts and he turned and grinned as Jensen trotted down the stairs, uncaring of his nudity as he strolled over to Jared, who was sitting just as naked on one of the rugs near the living room fireplace. He had been surprised to learn that the house was self sufficient as well as gorgeous with solar power, a well, and satellite cable. They could use their cell phones so there was no need for a phone line...it truly was paradise and safety. He had found that they had also stocked up with canned goods and frozen meat and he had found evidence of a garden in the backyard. If they hadn’t been cursed, they could have easily fallen off the map.

‘But then we never would have met,’ he reminded himself as Jensen lay down on the rug with him and cuddled close, kissing him gently in greeting. “I know...needless to say I’m in awe,” he murmured as he relaxed back.

“And fucked out...I can smell him on you,” Jensen remarked huskily before kissing him again as he laid out on top of Jared. The thought that the two were getting off on smelling each other on him turned him on as well. It was almost like they were very keen on possessing him as much as possible in the most animalistic of ways. He groaned as Jensen licked at the mark Jeff had left on his neck and turned his head to give better access. He actually *really* liked how possessive they were. It pushed away the thought that, once the curse was removed, they would have each other and he’d be left out. He would just take as much as he could as long as could and consequences be damned.

Jensen was just getting into it when he stopped suddenly and leaned up. “What was that?” he murmured softly and Jared looked up at him, and then tilted his head to look out the window. He leaned up as well and looked out the window that faced the driveway as they both saw twin headlamps coming down the drive. Jensen growled softly as he stood up and went over to where their bags were laying in the hall and pulled on some jeans and a sweater as Jared came over. He was just getting his shoes on as Jared pulled on his own clothes, then they both went outside to see who had come down and interrupted them.

Jared relaxed though as soon as he saw Mike coming out of the van and placed a soothing hand on Jensen’s tight shoulder. “Dude, I told him to follow us,” he said soothingly as the bald man came over.

“What do you want, Mike? What the hell did you drag Jared into now?” Jensen snapped as he crossed his arms over his chest and Jared rolled his eyes.

“Can we like...sit down and talk? I need a beer...” Mike asked instead and headed for the large patio deck that was behind where the fireplaces were.

Jared smiled winningly at Jensen and whimpered as he received a glare in return before he dashed inside to get them some beers. He came out onto the deck as Jensen sat down in one of the deck chairs and handed over the beers. Mike opened his and took a gulp with a happy sigh, but Jensen just continued to watch Mike. “Talk.”

“I asked him to follow us, Jensen. We have a plan to break the curse and we need your help to convince Jeff to let Mike help,” Jared explained as he sat at Jensen’s knee and looked up at him, pleading silently for his lover to listen.

“What plan? There’s no way to break the curse...except maybe killing that monster,” Jensen retorted bitterly, but he slid his fingers through Jared’s hair soothingly.

“There is a plan, Jense. There is. I finally found the source of the curse and there is a way to break it. In a week’s time, there will be an eclipse. Night and day will become one. If you both stand before Tom as yourselves, the curse will be broken,” Mike stated urgently as he leaned in closer, his eyes shining from excitement.

Jensen watched Mike impassively, his anger fading a bit obviously, but wariness still ruled him and Jared sought to comfort him by rubbing his cheek on Jensen’s thigh. Jensen’s fingers massaging his head reassured him as Jensen said, “How do you know that this isn’t some...plant by Marsters?”

“I thought that too, but I had it confirmed. You remember Allie? She confirmed that it was real,” Mike answered and grinned as Jensen grinned as well at the mention of their old friend.

“That little hacker...” Jensen murmured fondly.

“Hacker slash witch, Jense. She has been working with me ever since the curse got cast because it unbalanced the whole....energy of the world thing or something,” Mike added before taking a gulp of his beer.

“What do you want us to do?” Jensen finally asked as he turned to Mike a bit more, relaxing as he seemed to come to grips that this wasn’t a ruse. Jared felt his heart soar at this and nodded at Mike.

“We need to get Jeff to accept we need to do this. You guys are becoming more like your animal selves as the time passes. Surely you’ve noticed,” Mike replied before nodding at Jared.

Frowning in confusion, Jared looked up at Jensen and saw the regret and shame there. “What? What are they doing?” he asked in confusion as he looked between the two.

Mike stared at Jensen silently before focusing on Jared. “Marking their territory...killing...giving into their animal urges. They’re losing their humanity. That is the major price of the curse on them. Soon, they won’t even change into humans,” he explained softly and looked out over the dark woods when there was a wolf howl.

“B-Bullshit! Humans c-can be like th-that too!” Jared protested as he stuttered as he looked up at Jensen, but he saw that it wasn’t a lie. ‘Then those markings...the need to ride me bareback...it was just their animal sides?’ he thought and wanted to curl up as the thought devastated him. He looked down and away before shaking his head. “Well then we better work on breaking this, right?” he replied hoarsely before standing.

“Jared...”

The soft plea hurt him, but he yanked his hand away from Jensen’s touch. He couldn’t handle the tenderness...the lie. He went across the deck and down the stairs to the stone path that led towards the lake, almost running as it rushed over him. He came to a stop next to the lake and panted for air, trying not to notice the sobs that choked out of him as he hugged himself. ‘Lies lies lies...it wasn’t real...’ his thoughts taunted him and he shivered as he squatted down, curling up. He eventually calmed down and looked around, then stopped as he saw a four legged figure walking across the moonlit ice lake.

Jeff.

He stood up slowly and watched as Jeff sniffed across the lake slowly, heading in his direction. But suddenly, there was a crack followed by a loud splash and Jeff’s surprised yelp and Jared’s heart froze. “Jeff! Hold on!” The ice had broken!

He ran across the ice, gasping as he avoided weak spots and slipping and sliding as he followed the sounds of splashing and Jeff’s panicked yelping and whines. “Jensen! Mike! Help! He’s fallen into the ice!!” he screamed as he finally came to where Jeff was struggling to get out. He dropped to his belly and crawled forward, then grabbed onto the soaked wolf and worked to get him up out of the icy water. He heard the other two men shouting and the sound of snow crunching under shoes, but he was too focused on the life he was holding onto.

All of a sudden, the ice gave out under him and he plunged into the icy water. He gasped with shock and almost choked as he inhaled water, then broke the surface with a gasp and coughing. He grabbed onto Jeff and tried to push him up as he heard Jensen and Mike shouting their encouragement as they both tried to get a hold of him and Jeff. He cried out in pain though as Jeff snarled in fear and clawed at him and he went under again. He managed to push himself up through the hole and got a grip on Jeff and pushed the wolf out of the water and into Jensen’s arms. He was just about to go under again as he grew lethargic from the cold, but his hands were grasped and he was hauled out and into a pair of strong arms. He knew he needed to stay awake as he coughed, but he was so cold and dizzy. He moaned softly as blackness washed over him and he remembered no more.

TBC