‘thoughts’

Warnings: Smut, violence, rather grisly deaths >.<

Sighing, Jeff rolled his shoulders as he dismounted from his bike and looked out over the small city that they were on the edge of. He glanced over at Jared as the young man also dismounted and stretched, gazing around at the small wayside they’d stop at. He smirked as Jared looked at him questioningly, and then raised his arm so Jensen could land. “It’s a couple of hours until sundown. I want you to go into that town and get a place to stay and while you’re at it, have a stop at the mall and get yourself some new clothes and a winter coat,” he explained as Jared came over to his side. He wrapped an arm around Jared’s waist and smiled as the younger man pressed closer to him. ‘He feels so right...just like Jensen,’ he thought to himself as he gazed at Jared. He blinked out of his thoughts as Jared tilted an eyebrow at him, a tiny smile on his lips.

“So I’m supposed to get some new clothes? And what about you?” Jared asked as he wrapped his arms around Jeff’s waist in return and grinned as Jensen nuzzled his cheek while chirping.

“I will be outside the town...in the forest. But I’ll find you. I always do,” Jeff murmured as he smiled at Jared as he cupped the youth’s cheek. His breath held as Jared nuzzled his palm and he felt that thrill and arousal he thought only Jensen could get from him. ‘Just like Jensen...’

He blinked though as Jared’s smile faded and realized what had happened. He’d spoken aloud. He watched as Jared looked away, sadness shadowing the strong features before it was shaded by the black floppy hair. “He said...the same. Guess...I’ll only...be a shadow...till the time you and he get back together,” he mumbled and Jeff felt his heart clench at the sorrowful words.

‘You idiot! Why’d you say that!’ “Jared...hey...” He stopped as Jared pulled away a bit and went over to the side bags. He winced as Jensen chirped at him and pecked at his cheek lightly, almost reprovingly.

“I’ll get going,” Jared said softly as he pulled on a hat and looked in the bag, searching for something that Jeff wasn’t sure on.

Going over, Jeff placed a hand on Jared’s hands, stilling his search. He sighed as Jared trembled very faintly under his touch but then he wrapped his other arm around Jared’s waist again and rested his chin on top of Jared’s head. “You’re no shadow...but you feel as good to me as Jensen does. No one else has ever felt as good in my arms as you and Jensen. That’s what I meant,” he murmured and Jared relaxed somewhat against him. He smiled as Jared looked back and up at him, then leaned his head in and brushed their lips together. It was electric and gentle at the same time and his breath caught. It wasn’t just because it had been forever since he’d been intimate with someone. It was because it was Jared.

He pulled away before he could give into the almost overpowering urge to plunder Jared’s mouth or, even more desirable, bending the kid over and fucking him over his bike. They didn’t need the complication of him becoming a wolf in the middle of things. Jared licked his lips and Jeff groaned as he watched. ‘God fuck, just like with Jensen. All it took....god damn cock sucking mouth...’ he thought with a low growl, but then he relaxed as Jared flashed him a grin from between flushed cheeks. “Little fucker...you’re gonna get me jailed,” he growled good naturedly as he grinned before hugging Jared close to him. He then pulled out his wallet and handed it to Jared.

“Jeff...” Jared trailed off as he saw the reproving look on Jeff’s face and smiled a bit. “Thanks.”

“Go on git...and get some good clothes for you both. And shoes!” Jeff retorted gruffly as he swatted Jared’s ass, setting the young man into gear. Jensen shrieked happily and took off as Jared straddled the bike and Jeff had to beat off the image of him doing the same on his lap. ‘Hormones going out of control...too long indeed,’ he decided in annoyance as he went over to Jared’s side. He leaned in for another kiss, unable to resist those innocent seeming lips as his fingers threaded the dark silk that flopped on Jared’s head. The kiss deepened as Jared moaned softly, melting under his touch and Jeff growled low in his throat before pulling back, panting softly. He touched Jared’s cheek with a tender finger as he smiled, taking in the dilated eyes and flushed cheeks. ‘Oh yea, love that look...’ he thought before murmuring, “Drive and be safe. T-tell Jensen...that I love him. And that you two will look good together.” Jared’s eyes shone with pleasure at the comment before revving the bike and driving off. Jeff watched him go and felt his chest tighten with both longing and despair as the sun started to set behind him.

He wanted so much to be with them and knew that Jensen must feel the same if the affection he showed as a hawk was a sign. It didn’t matter that Jared was half his age practically.  Souls knew each other no matter what state they were in. If only things weren’t so fucked up.

He had the Mayor of New York City to thank for that.

With a soft growl, he headed into the woods and down towards the town. By the time he got near, he’d be changed and then it’d be up to his nose to finding them. He grinned ferally then, almost more wolf than man. How he loved the hunt...

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Adjusting himself as he rode along, Jared cursed under his breath about hot guys not letting him have any pants room and knew he’d probably have to beat off later. Especially since the stupid bike’s purring motor was right between his legs and giving his hard on more impetus than he needed at the moment for shopping. He almost considered just stopping and rubbing himself off on the bike and in his pants, but he’d have to wear the stupid things till he bought some more. Ah well...

When he got into the city, he drove around first, searching for three things: a hotel near the woods, a club, and a mall. He found all three of them relatively close together and wondered just how big this city was. The club even looked to be a gay friendly club if the two kissing guys at the front door was anything to go by. He went first to the bank and checked Jeff’s wallet. He almost choked when he saw the amount of huge bills in it and flushed. ‘God fucking damnit Jeff! This is too much!’ he thought and tried to think of when Jeff had gotten the time to hit an ATM machine. He sighed as he pocketed the wallet and made sure everything else was locked down before swinging off. He grinned as Jensen landed on the back rest and reached up to stroke gentle fingers along Jensen’s chest feathers and Jensen nipped at his fingers affectionately. He then looked in the bags to see what size he needed to get for Jensen, chuckling as Jensen tugged at some of his hair playfully. He stroked along the tiny head gently before whispering, “I’m gonna get us some clothes. Stay here and watch the bike for me, ok?” When Jensen cocked his head at him, Jared almost felt like Jensen really did understand him and it made wonder blossom in him. Sure they were animals during their given times and couldn’t remember when they were humans, but their souls knew what was and what wasn’t and it just amazed him.

Smiling, he went into the mall and then stopped. Should he get just good old stand bys like jeans and t-shirts or should he get stuff for clubs? ‘Why not get both, jackass? You have enough money!’ he told himself in exasperation and went into an Abercrombie and Fitch store. He’d always wanted to go into one of these stores...

He started looking through the clothes, picking stuff out for himself and for Jensen, including some new boxer briefs and a couple pairs of shoes. He tried on the stuff for himself and found he’d grown another couple of inches since the last time he’d gotten new clothes and was pleased. While he liked being shorter than Jensen and Jeff, he didn’t want it to be forever.

Finished, he took his stuff to the front and paid for them, then went to the Wal-Mart that was connected to the mall, stocking up on toothpaste, toothbrushes, and some deodorant and other necessities as well as two huge winter coats that were incredibly warm. Once he was done, he went back out after pulling on his winter coat and squinted when he saw how close to sundown they were. Cussing under his breath, he hurried to the bike and strapped everything down as Jensen chirped at him before taking off. He revved up and took off towards the hotel that he’d scoped out and checked in, requesting a bottom floor room near the woods. He of course had to make some lame excuse that he really enjoyed the fresh scent of trees in the morning before he was given his key. He made a face as he trotted out and rode swiftly to where his room was and went inside.

He whistled a bit and grinned as Jensen flew in and hopped onto the bed as he chirped as Jared shut the door. Jared then took the bags of new stuff and put some of the clothes and necessities in the bathroom, which was actually really huge, then urged Jensen onto his arm and carried him into the bathroom. He closed the door and breathed a small sigh of relief that he’d made it in time before going back to the clothes’ bags. He dug through and took off his old clothes, tossing them away with a wrinkle of his nose into the garbage and then went to the sink that was outside of the bathroom. He wet one of the towels and was just about to start washing himself when the door to the bathroom opened and Jensen leaned against the side, naked as the day he’d been born. Jared stopped, his mouth dropping open as he stared at the older man and flushed as Jensen smirked at him.

“Why don’t we take a shower...together?” Jensen suggested lowly and Jared would have cursed his current state of nakedness if he could think because his cock twitched at that suggestion, liking it *a lot*. Jensen’s smirk grew as he reached over and rubbed a hand down Jared’s back and Jared’s eyes fluttered closed as he arched a bit, moaning. The touch was beyond electric...it was scalding. He turned and dropped the rag as Jensen held a hand out and they went into the bathroom together.

Jensen reached into the shower and turned on the water before facing Jared and pulling him closer. As soon as their bodies pressed together, all bets were off as their mouths collided together in a fiery kiss. Jared moaned desperately as Jensen’s arms wrapped around his waist, pulling them as close together as possible as his mouth was plundered hungrily by the older man’s tongue and he rocked a bit, sliding his cock along smooth skin until it matched up with the equally  hard cock that was pressing into his belly. Jensen growled low in his throat and Jared arched a bit as strong hands moved to his ass, kneading and pushing them as close together as possible. His head fell back with a groan as Jensen started licking, biting, and sucking a path down his chin and neck and he jerked as Jensen bit him hard right at the neck shoulder joint. He clawed at the pale skin as he panted for air, so turned on he was afraid he was going to come if Jensen kept up his assault.

“Been wanting this too long...you’re so gorgeous, Jared...” Jensen’s voice was husky and raw with emotions and Jared couldn’t help feeling that this was so real, that he wasn’t just a substitute. As Jensen knelt before him while kissing and licking a wet hot path along his chest, that feeling grew. He *wasn’t* a substitute. Jensen really wanted *him*. ‘So does Jeff, dumbass! Now shut up and enjoy!’ his brain told him and he couldn’t help chuckling.

His chuckles changed to gasps as Jensen sucked his cock down like a pro and he moaned as he bent over a bit, his fingers curling into Jensen’s hair as the older man happily sucked him off. He trembled, unable to even imagine such pleasure like this and it didn’t take him long to come. He whimpered Jensen’s name and shook with pleasure as he came apart, filling Jensen’s eager mouth with his come as he thrust forward once. He wobbled a bit and would have collapsed if Jensen hadn’t stood and held him close, his mouth finding Jared’s in a hungry kiss that tasted of his release and served to arouse him again.

Dazedly, he let Jensen lead him into the steaming shower and moaned as he was pulled close to Jensen again. He rubbed against the older man as they started kissing once more while the water washed away the travel dirt of several days along with any of Jared’s release that remained. When their mouths parted, Jensen reached over for the shampoo conditioner mix Jared had bought and put some into his hand. He started washing Jared’s hair then and Jared almost started crying at the tenderness. He bowed his head a bit, letting Jensen take care of him a little before he reached over for the bottle as well. He began washing Jensen’s hair and smiled as Jensen’s eyes slipped closed in pleasure and his own eyes closed as well as the long fingers kneaded his head, relaxing and cleaning him at the same time.

He went along with Jensen’s movements as they went back under the stream to rinse out the suds. He tilted his head back, sighing in pleasure as he rested his hands on Jensen’s shoulders while the older man’s hands landed almost possessively on his hips. He moaned as Jensen’s mouth started suckling and biting along his arched neck and he wrapped his arms around Jensen’s head, holding him close as pleasure shot through him with every teasing touch. He let his head be brought up and returned the hungry kiss that Jensen grabbed him with as they moved out of the spray again. Their kiss broke and they both panted out of need for each other and air before Jensen glanced over and grabbed one of the rags. Jared also grabbed one a bit shakily and laughed nervously as Jensen grinned wickedly at him, a sight that just made him even harder. Jensen then brought up the shower gel and poured a generous amount onto both rags before he started cleaning Jared.

Jared took a bit to start his own cleaning since the feeling of Jensen scrubbing him in light circles just about undid him, but he managed to regain control and started cleaning the strong lean body before him. He followed Jensen’s example and skipped the hard cock that was jutting out between the older man’s legs and grinned teasingly as Jensen glared at him but then they both just laughed softly as they cleaned each other’s legs. Jensen then pulled him close and ran his rag down Jared’s back and proceeded to thoroughly clean Jared’s crack and hole.

Unable to do more than gasp and spread his legs for balance and better access for Jensen, Jared clung to Jensen as he buried his face in the older man’s shoulder. When a rag cocooned finger pressed into him and started stretching and cleaning him, he shuddered as his mind short circuited. He’d never *ever* felt this much pleasure and he sure as hell didn’t want to stop. Every push and twist of the finger had him gasping and rubbing against the older man and he couldn’t hold back, didn’t want to hold back. With a cry, he shuddered and arched hard against Jensen as his come spurted between their bodies in his climax.

He felt like he’d melted into Jensen as he relaxed a bit, feeling warm and aroused as Jensen chuckled and muttered about his libido. He looked up and mouthed along Jensen’s rough chin as he brought his rag around, then looked down to watch as he cleaned off the rest of the come that hadn’t rinsed away and then focused on cleaning that hard shaft he wanted. Jensen groaned and arched, obviously close himself as Jared cleaned the hard flesh then down between Jensen’s legs. He was suddenly turned and nuzzled into the wet cool tile as Jensen pressed along his body from behind.

Spreading his legs, Jared moaned as he turned his head and watched from the corner of his eye as Jensen squirted some of the shower gel onto his cock before pressing in against Jared. Jared’s eyes fluttered closed again as he moaned softly when Jensen started pushing his cock into him. He shifted his head and leaned his forehead against the tile as he was stretched and filled painfully, feeling good as well as pain filled as the large cock took him over just as Jensen and Jeff had taken his life over. His right hand suddenly had fingers laced with his own and he squeezed the fingers as he struggled to relax, panting as he trembled under the older man.

He relaxed a bit more as Jensen’s strong arm wrapped around his chest and then slid down a bit to hold him steady, but it was Jensen’s whispered, “Fuck, you’re a virgin...” that almost made him lose it. They both groaned deeply as Jensen moved, thrusting shallowly into Jared’s quivering hole. He never thought he’d lose his virginity to such a man, but oh man he was so not letting it go! His mind was washed away with pleasure as it replaced the pain as Jensen started thrusting steadily into him. Soon he was pulled back a bit and braced more on the wall as Jensen kept plunging deeper and deeper into him, becoming harder and faster as their whispers and moans grew steadily louder. Jared found that he was soon babbling, begging for more and harder and please please please now fuck me now as Jensen took over his world with every piercing thrust.

His world exploded as a slender hand wrapped around his cock and stroked once and he was gone, screaming as he fell into that chasm that was far deeper than he ever imagined. It became even brighter and hotter as Jensen growled against his ear and wet heat filled him inside and he couldn’t think anymore as he blacked out.

He came back slowly to himself, still shaking with pleasure as he clung to Jensen’s arms around him. He moaned a bit as he felt Jensen still deep inside of him and he didn’t want that feeling to go as the shower stream poured over them, washing away their exertions as well as their release. But it had to end and Jensen gently pulled from him before turning him and holding him close. Jared relaxed into him as his senses calmed down and he let Jensen take care of him. He didn’t stir too much as the shower was shut off and he was led from the shower and toweled dry. But he did become a bit more aware as he was kissed gently and smiled into the kiss as he held Jensen close.

When they pulled away a bit, he chuckled softly as Jensen grinned at him and watched as some of the worry left Jensen’s green gaze. “That...was beyond awesome,” he finally managed roughly and Jensen chuckled this time as they rested their foreheads together.

“So what now?” Jensen murmured seductively and Jared wanted to kick his hormones as they twitched at the possibility. Jensen’s grin showed the older man knew just what he’d done and Jared just wanted to bite him for the smugness.

“Well, I saw a club that’s nearby and was thinking we could go there,” he finally drawled out lazily and grinned as Jensen’s eyebrow tilted up. “Wha?” he asked semi-innocently and grinned even more.

“Aren’t you a bit underage?” Jensen asked before stepping back and reaching for one of the boxer briefs that had been put in the bathroom with him.

“Yea, on my real ID,” Jared replied flippantly and snickered as Jensen swatted him as he sauntered out. He went over to the clothes he’d put aside for himself and started pulling them on before going over and combing back his wet hair. He brushed his teeth and then looked over as Jensen came out, clean shaven and dressed in the black jeans and button down green silk shirt that Jared had given him. Jared felt his pants get really tight at the sight and groaned as Jensen pinned him against the sink with a thigh between his legs. “God you look good,” he moaned and jerked as the older man rotated his leg slowly, a knowing smirk on his full lips as he watched Jared.

“You look downright fuckable,” Jensen purred as he pressed their bodies together and ran a hand down the black cotton button down shirt that Jared had put on before stopping at the waistband of the black jeans he had on. “Let’s go dance,” he said though instead of finishing Jared off and Jared moaned and whimpered as Jensen pulled away from him. Jensen laughed softly as he went over and grabbed a pair of the dress shoes, then put them on after taking the socks Jared threw at him and pulling them on. Jared pulled on the black sneakers he’d bought and went over to get their jackets. He gave one to Jensen, whose eyes sparkled in delight at the sight of the down filled jacket, then put on his own jacket. Grabbing the room key and giving the spare to Jensen, Jared led the way out and started them walking towards the club, which was a block away.

They both stopped when they heard the wolf howl and grinned at each other before lacing their fingers together and continuing towards the club. They got in with little trouble and both relaxed as the club scene swept them away with its pounding bass, flashing lights, and sexy bodies that swayed together to the beat. They found a booth and put their coats there before getting a couple of beers and sitting together. They started talking about their lives and Jared found out more of what had happened three years before. He opened up about his own fall out with his family and his move to New York City and the things he’d gone through and accepted the kiss and comfort that Jensen offered him even as he offered the same for all that Jeff and Jensen had been through.

To distract them from their deep thoughts, Jared pulled Jensen onto the dance floor and started dancing. Well at least he danced how *he* knew to dance and got Jensen laughing so hard he nearly fell over. But then Jensen pulled him close and turned him so they were back to front and swayed. He let his head fall back in pleasure as they just ground together to the beat, swaying as one as Jensen’s hands roamed over his front and thighs while his own hands clung to Jensen’s hips. It was arousing and sensual, but safe and secure at the same time and he loved it.

But it didn’t last as Jensen suddenly stiffened behind him and stilled. Looking up, Jared saw that he was focused on something and followed his line of sight until it landed on two very hot dark haired women who were watching them both intently.  All of a sudden, Jensen pulled back and grabbed his hand, yanking him along with a yelp as he went back to their booth. He ignored Jared’s inquiries into what was wrong as he threw Jared’s coat at him before grabbing his own, then swiftly dragged Jared out of the club and into the chill night. They walked swiftly away from the club and it took a bit to keep up with Jensen, but Jared was almost too baffled on whatever was going on to really protest. When they got almost all the way back to their room, he finally halted them and tugged Jensen close. “What’s going on, Jensen?” he demanded as he huffed for breath, winded from their almost run.

Jensen panted a bit but Jared couldn’t tell if it was from panic or from the fast walk as he gazed at Jared before glancing back the way they’d come. He opened his mouth to say something, but then pulled Jared suddenly just before the ground next to them exploded from getting hit by a projectile. He kept them running as more shots were fired until they were into the woods just outside of their hotel. “Jensen! What is happening?!” Jared demanded in alarm as they ran along, and then came to a stop in a glade.

“Assassins. We have to find Jeff,” Jensen answered tersely and Jared felt his insides freeze at that.

“Assassins? What do they want?” he whispered shakily as they looked around in the near darkness. He cried out and jumped with Jensen as the sound of something clanking shut swiftly sounded near them. Another and then another snapping clank ripped through the air as they shifted so they were back to back.

“Show yourself, you fucking bitches!” Jensen snarled out as he trembled against Jared’s back and held Jared even closer as they waited for the two to show themselves. They both stiffened as they heard the yelp of pain from a dog mingling with another of the snapping clanks and horror flooded through Jared.

“Oh god...Jeff...” he whispered and they both took off towards where the sounds had been. They stopped as they found the two girls next to a barbaric trap, pulling out a huge black shape from the trap as they grinned evilly. “You...fucking bitches!” Jared snarled and stepped forward, but stopped as two guns were pointed at him from the black haired lady.

“Well well....you must be that brat that escaped the mayor of New York City. And Jensen...been such a long time,” the kneeling assassin remarked and grinned as Jensen snarled at her.

“Not long enough,” Jensen hissed as he pulled Jared closer to him and Jared could see the tears and despair on the older man’s face and knew he was about the same.

“Eh, who cares. We have one of our objectives...now to finish off the other,” the standing assassin stated as she cocked her gun and pointed it at Jared. “Get rid of the brat and bring in you...the mayor will be pleased,” she purred as she took aim.

She didn’t get to fire though as a black shape hurtled out of the air and tackled her, snarls drowning out her screams of shock as she fought to save herself. Jared stared and then felt relief flood over him. He heard Jensen’s whispered, “Thank god...Jeff...” and knew he was right.

But the girl’s partner had other thoughts as she shouted and took aim at the writhing pile of snarling and screaming. Without even thinking, Jared ran forward and kicked her hard, sending her flying back...and onto one of the traps they had set. With a clanking snap, it pierced her neck and head as she screamed in agony and jerked in her death throes before her body slowly stilled as gurgles floated into the air. Shaking hard, Jared backed away and turned suddenly when he bumped into a strong body, then was held close as he just shook and buried his face in Jensen’s strong chest. The death sounds finally faded away and the sounds of panting and a whine broke through the silence. They both turned to where Jeff was watching them, his eyes shining and his muzzle wet. He watched them for a minute before turning and trotting back into the forest darkness and Jared shuddered again.

They went back to their hotel, not even worrying about the bodies of the two assassins as they just got away from the scene. Sure, they’d be found someday, but for now, they just wanted...*needed* to get away. They got into the room and Jared sobbed suddenly as it washed over him suddenly what had just happened and what had nearly happened. He ran into the bathroom and stripped before climbing into the shower. He turned the water on hot and started scrubbing himself as he sobbed hysterically, unable to get past everything that was flashing before his eyes as memories from all that had happened within the last two months crowded into his mind.

But two gentle hands stopped his scrubbing and he turned into Jensen’s hold and clung to the older man as he cried. Everything had just gotten a whole lot darker and dangerous and they’d almost *lost* it all. And he couldn’t have that...he couldn’t take it.

He wanted it to end.

TBC