Authors: Deathangelgw and Sarit
Disclaimer: we don’t own the boys, but boy are we gonna have
fun with them!!!
Warnings: AU, shounen-ai, angst, sap, fluff, yaoi, lemon!!
Rating: NC-17
Pairings: and now to the good stuff…hinted 2x5x2 and for
certain 3x4x1 *purrs*
Note: Lemon…yum…Enjoy and please review!!
‘thoughts’
The shuttle soon landed on Earth, a car waiting for them when
they landed. The orphanage at which
Shaina now lived was not that far from the airport, which was a blessing of
sorts.
Duo had nearly risked his very neck, as he continued to tease
Heero and Trowa constantly. More
Heero than Trowa, since the youth seemed to take a delight in having his friend
threaten him bodily harm on a regular occurrence.
Quatre rolled his eyes at Duo as they approached the outside
of the orphanage. They were all
nervous, having not seen Shaina since she was a baby.
It wasn't hard for Heero to snap regularly at Duo, but he was
also thankful for the distraction. He'd taken to holding Quatre and Trowa's
hands a lot the whole way to the orphanage, almost shaking with nervousness.
Wufei was the calmest on the outside of the five, next being
Trowa. But they both knew that they needed to be that way.
Sally smiled over at them as she rang the doorbell and
announced themselves to the security. She hoped things would go well...
The door opened and a kindly old nun appeared.
She smiled at the group, instantly recognizing Sally.
"Miss Po, I am glad to see you have returned, and with your friends as
well. Please, come in." She held the
door open for them, and Quatre bowed his head and entered.
Duo did likewise, instantly all serious, his eyes shimmering.
She reminded him of Sister Helen...
The three other former pilots bowed in greeting as well before
coming in and looking around. The sounds of children’s' laughter echoed around
the halls as they walked along, listening and observing.
Sally smiled at the nun kindly. "How is Shaina, Sister? Any
changes?"
The Sister sighed, shaking her head.
"I'm afraid not, Miss Po. If
anything, she's grown worse. She
refuses to interact with anyone, especially the other children.
Come, I will show you." She led the way from the entrance to the backyard
of the building.
Children were playing, jumping and screaming in their
playtime. All except one little
girl. She was about two years old
and sitting alone. She had two pigtails of brown red hair, though her eyes were
so distant and cold.
Heero's eyes immediately locked onto the little girl and were
filled with such remorse and pain that Trowa placed a steadying hand on his
shoulder. Wufei's face creased in a frown as Sally went over to the little girl
and knelt before her, speaking quietly to her.
The little girl didn't seem to hear Sally at all, just stared
straight ahead and made no noises, not even one that she saw the young woman
before her. Quatre closed his eyes,
shaking his head sadly. What she
must have gone through...
Heero finally squared his shoulders and went over to the
little girl. He knelt before her and gazed at her, his eyes soft. He asked her
quietly in Japanese if she knew what she was looking for.
Wufei and Trowa watched along with the other three in grim
hope, praying she would react to Heero at least.
Shaina looked up briefly, glancing at Heero.
There was a flicker of recognition in her eyes before she lowered her
head again and stared at the grass.
Heero's face softened in hope as he asked another question in
Japanese. He reached forward and brushed his fingers through her hair gently,
just like he used to.
Blinking once, Shaina looked up at him, flinching away.
"No touch!!" She crossed her arms over her chest, hugging herself
tightly. Ever since her adopted
parents died, she allowed no one to touch her.
It reminded her too much of her dreams...
"Doushite, fuurin?" Heero asked quietly as he held his fingers
in front of her soothingly. He frowned slightly in distress and glanced over at
his friends and lovers.
Trowa patted his mouth and then mimed playing the flute.
Heero's eyes lit up and he nodded before sitting down on the ground. Softly, he
began singing the lullaby he used to sing to Shaina when she was upset.
The song had the impact of a douse of cold water.
Shaina's eyes widened and she gave a soft whimper.
It was too much; the song brought back such confusing and painful
memories. Her parents dying in front
of her...someone abandoning her...
Crying out, she pushed Heero aside and ran from the yard,
sobbing. She ran inside the
building, slamming the door behind her in her effort to get away from the
painful memories.
Heero sat, stunned, then curled up and buried his face in his
knees. He didn't even move as Trowa came over swiftly and wrapped him in strong
arms.
Wufei bowed his head in grief as Sally ran in after Shaina. If
Shaina reacted like that way to the one whom she had most bonded too...then what
were they to do?
Kneeling next to Heero, Quatre placed a soothing hand on his
lover's shoulder. "Heero...she is
not rejecting you. She is
afraid...she's suddenly found herself face to face with something she remembers
that was soothing...we have to give her time."
"Very wise of you, young man." Sister Marie smiled, nodding
with tears in her eyes. "Thank you,
young man. You have brought more
emotion to that little girl in just a few moments than we have been able to get
ever since she came here. Your
friend is right. It will take time,
but I have a feeling she will come around to you."
Heero looked up, his eyes filled with hope, yet also looking
lost. "Honto?" He whispered softly.
"Yes, Heero...we'll keep trying..." Trowa said softly as he
smiled in encouragement.
"What we might want to do is come and visit every day for a
few hours, just us five, and take her away from here for small periods of time.
Then, she'll get used to us." Wufei suggested as he wrapped an arm around his
lover's waist.
"Of course we'll keep trying!
And that's a great idea, Fei!
I'm sure it'll work!" Duo nodded with conviction, gazing at the way Sally had
gone. He hoped it would work
anyway...
"That's right. So
don't give up, Heero." Quatre smiled at his love, holding his hand out.
"Come on. Perhaps if we were
to stay for dinner, it might help her a bit to see we don't bite."
Heero nodded, smiling softly in hope as he took Quatre's hand.
Silently, he got up with Trowa and they all headed inside to talk more with
Sally and Sister Marie.
Shaina had closed and locked herself in her room, refusing to
let anyone, even Sister Marie, inside.
The older woman was all smiles, though.
"Not to worry. She'll come
out when she gets hungry. She always
does. Let her be for a bit."
Heero's eyes again looked worried and lost, but he calmed as
Trowa gently squeezed his hand.
Wufei cocked his head as Sally came back into the room. "So?"
He asked as they sat down in the living room.
"So? Well...I managed to talk to her a bit. She's definitely
afraid and confused." Sally said as she sat down and sighed.
"Which is to be expected." Quatre said softly, giving Heero's
shoulders a squeeze. "She's been
alone for a long time and she's afraid of her memories.
Memories can be a powerful thing, especially to one so small."
"Hai." Heero whispered softly, his eyes filled with distress.
"Well...she'll just have to get used to us again....good thing
we don't have to change diapers anymore." Wufei said as he made a face.
Sister Marie smirked, arching an eyebrow upwards.
"And what makes you think you won't, young man?
She's not quite potty trained, after all."
Duo snickered, and then danced out of range of his lover with
a grin.
Wufei glowered at his lover as Heero and Trowa snickered
slightly.
Sally chuckled as she shook her head. "Well, the terrible twos
it is!" She said as she stretched.
Duo smirked at his lover, sticking out his tongue as he hid
behind Quatre. Quatre rolled his
eyes heavenward, then snickered. "Ah
yes...the terrible twos. Won't we
have fun."
"Even though we have been living through them with Duo and
Wufei?" Trowa asked innocently and Heero snickered as Wufei shot them a glare.
He then glared at Sally as she cackled.
"Hey!" Duo growled, glaring at Trowa.
Quatre snickered, then quickly hid behind Heero and smirked at his
glaring friend.
Trowa looked innocently back at Duo. "Yes Duo? Hay is for
horses, just so you know." He said and grinned as Heero snickered even more.
Even Wufei was fighting a grin as Sally chuckled some more.
Duo narrowed his eyes, glaring at Trowa.
"Sometimes I hate your acidic wit."
"Awww...why? I
think it’s cute." Quatre snickered, winking at Trowa as Duo rolled his eyes.
Trowa's grin grew slightly as he winked at Duo. "Better to
have a wit then to be boring." He grinned as Heero snorted with laughter along
with Wufei.
"I'm not boring!
Am I Fei?" Duo asked his lover, giving him a pointed glare, as if daring him to
say that he was boring.
Wufei burst out laughing at that thought. "YOU?! Not in this
lifetime." He said with a wave of his hand. Trowa snickered some more as Sally
clutched her sides from laughing.
"See? I'm not
boring. So there." Duo stuck his
tongue out at Trowa, smirking impishly.
Quatre snickered, helping Sally up as he tried to control his own
laughter.
Trowa smirked. "If you will note, Duo...I meant the comment
for myself." He said with a cocked eyebrow.
Heero chuckled as Wufei smirked. "He does have a point, love."
Wufei said with a grin.
"Oh hush up." Duo growled, crossing his arms over his chest
and glared at them. He blinked, and
then grinned. He didn't say
anything, but he saw a small figure from the top of the stairs watching them
silently.
"Aw is poor Duo being picked on?? Come here and let Fei-fei
help you." Wufei cooed, then snickered as Heero and Trowa snorted with laughter.
Duo just gave his lover a glare, and then rolled his eyes
heavenward. He smirked, and then
pulled on his lover's ponytail.
"Behave or you can sleep outside tonight.
By yourself."
Quatre shook his head with a grin, and then noticed the small
figure on the top of the stairs as well.
He grinned with pleasure, seeing Shaina watching them silently with wide
eyes.
Wufei pouted, and then smirked. "I wonder who would be more
disappointed in that arrangement, love. You or me...cuz I know I have better
control." he said with a leer.
"TMI!!" Sally squawked out and grinned as Heero and Trowa
laughed some more, leaning into each other.
"Nah, I'd just glomp my buddy, right Q?!" Duo grinned,
glomping Quatre from behind, who rolled his eyes.
"Sure, if you want to fight them over me first." Quatre
smirked, pointing at Heero and Trowa.
Heero cocked an eyebrow as he glanced at the two before
looking at Trowa. "I told you that Duo couldn't stand being second to us..." He
said as he thumbed over at Duo while Trowa snickered. Wufei grinned in
amusement.
"I resent that remark!" Duo growled, giving Heero a mock
glare.
Quatre snickered, shaking his head.
"Don't you mean, you resemble that remark?"
"Oh shut up." Duo groused, pouting cutely.
"You guys are so mean to me!"
"You set yourself up, love." Wufei said as he grinned and the
other two chuckled softly in amusement. He patted his lap and grinned as Sally
stretched and yawned.
"I wonder when dinner is." Heero asked as he snuggled Trowa's
shoulder. Trowa smirked and winked at Quatre, patting his lap.
"It won't be too much longer." A young boy stated.
He gazed at the adults, his eyes flicking up to Shaina at the top of the
stairs. He turned his attention back
to the adults, his eyes sad.
"Oh. Thank you.
What's your name?" Quatre inquired politely, smiling at the boy.
The boy shrugged.
"Matt."
"A pleasure to meet you, Matt. How old are you?" Trowa asked
warmly as they shifted into less intimate stances and smiled at the young man.
"Six." Matt said triumphantly, holding out five fingers.
He frowned, and then added another finger after a moment's thought and
nodded. "Six."
Heero chuckled softly along with Wufei as Trowa nodded. "My
goodness then...you are certainly a big boy."
"Indeed...almost a grown-up." Wufei said with a smile.
"I suppose." Matt shrugged, and then plopped down into a
chair. He blinked up at Heero, and
then with all the innocence only a child can muster, he spoke.
"You're Shaina's papa, aren't ya?"
Heero blinked in surprise, and then looked down. "Not in
blood. I...we took care of her for a few months before...things happened that we
had to give her to someone better able to help her." He said quietly, eyes
filled with remorse.
"Nah, you are. You
look like her. Act like her too."
Matt countered before sucking on his thumb.
After a moment he pulled it out and shrugged.
"You're quiet like she is.
And you watch everything, like she is."
Heero smiled slightly as he gazed at Matt. "Are you...her
friend?" He asked quietly in interest as he gazed at the young boy. The other
pilots watched silently, just as interested.
"Eh. Sorta.
Shaina doesn't really have any friends.
I'm the closest she has, I think." Matt admitted.
He looked up at the stairs, and then rolled his eyes as Shaina stuck her
tongue out at him and hid behind a column.
"She's such a brat."
Heero looked over to where Matt was looking and smiled softly.
"Iiee...she always was a free spirit. She chose her friends..." He said proudly
as he gazed at her. The other pilots looked over as well and smiled.
"Did not!!! Don't
have friends!!" A female voice sounded from the top of the stairs.
Matt rolled his eyes again, shaking his head.
"See? She's a brat."
Heero took faith from Matt. In truth, when Shaina had said
what she said, he'd felt his heart rip in pain. But, if Matt wasn't concerned,
then he could relax somewhat.
"So how long have you known Shaina?" Wufei asked nonchalantly
as if Shaina hadn't spoken. He smirked at Trowa and they winked.
"Since she got here." Matt said, swinging his legs back and
forth. Shaina stuck her head through
the wooden bars of the stairs once more, watching with narrowed eyes.
"Do you like her?" Trowa asked softly as he smiled at Matt.
Heero's eyes kept trailing up to Shaina hopefully as he listened to the bold
little boy.
"Eh. She's okay
for a girl." Matt shrugged, though he looked down to hide his flush.
He eeped as he heard Shaina hiss at him from upstairs.
"Well, okay for a girl."
The pilots chuckled softly in amusement. Heero started asking
some more questions as Wufei murmured softly to Duo, "I wonder if we should
start interrogating him now before they start dating?"
Duo rolled his eyes heavenward, though he snickered and
grinned evilly. "Maybe."
Matt just blinked up at Heero, answering what he could.
He actually liked these guys.
He hoped the Sister was right and they'd be able to help Shaina.
Wufei just grinned at his lover as Heero continued talking
softly with Matt. He smiled softly as he saw how gentle Heero was being. 'He's
certainly loosened up.' he thought happily.
Matt finally stuffed his thumb in his mouth and gave a snort.
It was boring talking to these adults.
He smirked, then pulled out a small ball and threw it up at the ceiling.
It came down, and then hit Shaina on her head.
She gave a whimper, then raced down the stairs and started
chasing Matt, growling in anger.
The pilots stifled their laughter as they watched the two and
tried not to get into the way. They all knew when to stay out of the way of a
woman's wrath.
Catching up with Matt, Shaina tackled him, growling.
He snickered, patting her on the head and sticking his tongue out.
She sniffled, then sat back and started to cry.
Heero looked at the others in support, and then went over to
Shaina. Tenderly, he rubbed her back, speaking soothingly to her as he brushed
away her tears.
Trowa held his breath, unconsciously mimicked by Wufei as they
prayed that Heero wouldn't scare her again.
Shaina looked up, a bit afraid.
Everyone that she had ever cared about had gone away.
Bu this one seemed to stay, no matter what she did.
She sobbed harder, finally giving in and burying her face in his chest,
clinging to him tightly.
Heero wrapped his arms tightly around Shaina and hummed softly
to her. His face was soft with caring as he rocked her.
The others smiled softly in relief. Things were looking better
all ready...
Shaina soon cried herself hoarse, tears dried on her face as
she rested against Heero. He was so
familiar to her...his soft voice, his familiar scent.
She felt safe with him there, for some unknown reason.
Heero smiled softly as he picked her up easily and went over
to the window seat, holding her close. He sang softly to her, rubbing her back
gently as he sang.
Sally got up and winked at Matt, then asked him to show her to
where Sister Marie was. She wanted to get the ball rolling on getting Shaina
adopted.
Matt blinked, looking up at Sally.
His mouth dropped open and he nodded.
She was so tall! He led her
to Sister Marie, still awestruck.
Shaina snuggled against Heero, sniffing on occasion as she
rested against him. All the bad
memories seemed to go away when he held her.
She looked up at him, her blue eyes wide and afraid.
"Promise...no leave..."
Heero's eyes filled with tears as he smiled at her. "I
promise, fuurin...I'm not letting you go this time. I promise." He whispered
softly as he brushed her hair from her face.
"Same with us, little one." Trowa whispered softly, smiling
gently along with the others.
"Promise?" Shaina asked with wide eyes, staring at all five of
them in wonder.
"Of course, sweet one.
You'll never be alone again." Duo said softly, giving her a smile.
She gave a hesitant smile back, feeling unsure.
"Would you like to be with us, fuurin? Live with us?" Heero
asked quietly as he brushed her hair again soothingly.
Swallowing hard, Shaina gave a brief nod, afraid.
Every time she'd let herself believe she had a home, it was taken from
her. Would this be any different?
Heero smiled gently at her as he rubbed her back. "Then we
shall be together." He said softly, yet firmly. The others smirked as they saw
his set features. It was Heero's newest mission.
"Really? Promise?"
Shaina couldn't quite believe what she was hearing.
Did he really want her around?
Did they really want her?
"Promise." Quatre smiled at her reassuringly, his eyes filled
with conviction. He'd make sure they
were together, no matter what.
Heero nodded sharply, mimicked by Trowa and Wufei. "You...are
our family. It's time we proved it." Wufei said firmly as he smiled softly.
"No...family always die..." Shaina said miserably, closing her
eyes as more tears fell from her eyes.
"They always go way..."
"Not anymore." Heero said firmly as he held her closely,
wiping her tears away. "Not...anymore." He whispered softly, soothingly as he
rocked her gently.
"O...Okay..." Shaina said softly, looking down.
She wasn't sure if she trusted them or not, but was willing to wait and
see if it were true.
"It may take some time." Trowa said gently as Heero placed his
chin on her head and rubbed her back.
"But you will be with us soon." Wufei said firmly, smiling
gently.
Shaina nodded, burying her face in Heero's chest.
She snuggled against him, feeling safe, at least for a little while.
She wouldn't feel completely safe until they were truly a family again.
Heero smiled softly as he began singing softly to her again.
He rocked her gently, rubbing her back as he sang quietly, the soft Japanese
floating out lovingly.
Sighing softly Shaina rested her head on Heero's chest, her
eyes closing. The song was so
soothing and so familiar. She
finally fell asleep in his arms, her tears gone.
Heero smiled softly as he let his song trail off, and then
looked over at his smiling lovers and friends. His face softened even more with
love as he held her close, feeling complete.
Wufei stretched a bit, then said, "We should find Sister Marie
so we can take her to bed."
"You've found me already, young man." Sister Marie said
softly, smiling at the sight that greeted her.
Matt had found her, along with Sally.
After speaking with Sally, she had returned to the living room to speak
with the five former pilots.
Wufei hit his head on the back of his chair as he looked over
sharply in surprise, then cursed softly as he rubbed his head.
Trowa snickered softly as Heero grinned slightly, and then
asked, "Where can I put her to bed?"
Sister Marie smiled, though she was hard pressed not to
snicker at the young Chinese man.
"Upstairs. If you'd like, you can
sleep in her room. She has no other
roommates with her."
Nodding, Heero smiled softly. "You don't mind?" He asked as he
stood up and cradled Shaina close to him.
"What about the fact that we want to adopt her?" Wufei asked,
eyes narrowing slightly. She was, after all, a Catholic nun. Catholics opposed
gay marriages and adoptions loudly even in this time.
"Yes, young man, I do mind actually.
But I know what is good for that young girl, and her happiness outweighs
my own views or wants." Sister Marie said softly, shrugging.
"I would do whatever it takes to help that child."
Wufei relaxed visibly along with the other pilots. Heero bowed
his head, smiling in relief. "Arigato."
"Just take care of her." Sister Marie said softly, then
inclined her head and headed for the kitchen to finish the dinner preparations.
Wufei rolled his eyes and sighed. "Catholics..." He muttered
and smirked as Trowa chuckled in amusement.
"Go upstairs with Shaina...we'll bring you dinner." Trowa said
as he smiled over at Heero. Heero nodded and headed upstairs with the sleeping
little girl.
Quatre smiled softly, and then turned to Sally.
"What must we do to begin adoption proceedings?"
Sally sighed softly. "The usual...file the appropriate papers
and such. The rest is up to the judge and the orphanage, since she is a Ward of
the Law." She said with another sigh.
"Will it be messy?" Trowa asked quietly as Wufei ran his hand
up and down Duo's back as he listened.
"Messy? You've
never seen an adoption proceeding then." Duo rolled his eyes.
"They're extremely messy.
Some of the worst."
Trowa sighed sadly as he looked down. Wufei poked his lover,
and then said, "We'll keep Shaina as much apart from them so they don't hurt
her." He said firmly.
"Of course we will!
No one hurts our little girl!" Duo exclaimed, smirking evilly as he
cracked his knuckles. Quatre
snickered, shaking his head in amusement.
"Idiot." Wufei said as he lightly bopped his lover on the
head.
"Shall we head for dinner?" Trowa asked as he got up and
stretched.
"If there is food there, hell yes!" Duo snickered, dodging his
lover and heading for the dining room.
Quatre snickered, shaking his head as he followed his friend and winked
at Trowa.
Wufei sighed loudly in exasperation as he followed his lover
out. Trowa snickered in amusement as well as he put his arm through Quatre's and
followed them out to the dining hall.
TBC
